Whining

This is not what I'd usually post but I'm just gonna write a long rant.
So I went for the interview on thursday. I thought everything turned out well and I was quite confident about it. And then this morning when I was sleeping my phone rang and I saw the screen showing "private number" and I went all

picked up the phone and be like

I was so excited when the guy said he's calling from the organisation 

and when he said the word "unfortunately"

me:

And apparently their main reason of not recruiting me as a volunteer is because" we are worried language might be a problem"

me:

Then he said "actually you did very good and your personality really suits the job" and blablablabla

while i was experiencing all these emotions inside:

I MEAN COME ON!LANGUAGE?is it because in the application at the first language bar I ticked not english? oh well my english sucks then

This may be a temporary downfall but I will rise above that. I will not let myself down and I understand strong people are strong, weak people are weak. Of this 3 years studying in australia, I've had enough of the moments I wish I was very different from what i am. I've had enough of moments when people think i'm a chinese they give me the eye. I am full chinese ethnically though not nationally and I refuse to be looked down at. I will make sure I improve my english and not let language be an obstacle. Learning from Scarlett O'Hara , I say I'll never be weak again. As God is my witness, I will live through this. If I have to do whatever it takes for me to succeed I will do it. As God is my witness, I'll never be weak again.